Threads unraveling,
Spirits traveling.
While your mind is ravaging
Your heart,
Quested for the soul,
While paying the toll,
The whole way.
Not even to stay.
But to transgress,
Through this hostile plane,
Unwelcoming terrain.
I digress,
And I must stress
Now we must rest
For what they may say
When we reach the day
To take the "final test."
Alas it is not the end.
Nor is it the beginning.
I laugh because this is why our heads are spinning.
To those with a superior point of view,
I assure you,
I'm only here to confuse you.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Thursday, April 3, 2014
All Boiling Over
I haven't written on here in ages. So much to the point that I was beginning to wonder if I ever would again. This life moves so quickly. People move on from one thing to the next without a first thought, let alone a second one. Truthfully, it's why I feel safe saying whatever the hell I want... because sure, you may be mad for a second until you go watch TV or something...
Besides being overtly negative already, I mostly just haven't known how to express exactly everything I've been thinking. Then I realized it wasn't a matter of not being able to, I don't want to.
Simply put my days of being able to relate the particulars of my life are now over. That's okay with me, entirely.
I've been through a lot since I've moved down here. On a basic level, I've lost about 20 lbs, negative relationships are no longer weighing me down, and existentially I've completely transformed but I am wholly who I have always been... it's nice.
I've been all over the place creatively. Writing, painting, costuming. I'm mostly anxiety ridden about not having the ability to get out and photograph some of my most recent work, but with a little patience, that will come in due time.
Good things are happening and even better things are coming.
Besides being overtly negative already, I mostly just haven't known how to express exactly everything I've been thinking. Then I realized it wasn't a matter of not being able to, I don't want to.
Simply put my days of being able to relate the particulars of my life are now over. That's okay with me, entirely.
I've been through a lot since I've moved down here. On a basic level, I've lost about 20 lbs, negative relationships are no longer weighing me down, and existentially I've completely transformed but I am wholly who I have always been... it's nice.
I've been all over the place creatively. Writing, painting, costuming. I'm mostly anxiety ridden about not having the ability to get out and photograph some of my most recent work, but with a little patience, that will come in due time.
Good things are happening and even better things are coming.
Saturday, November 16, 2013
Disregard this rant
Today I am immensely irritated.
Nothing new.
So that irritates me. There's always something.
On the quest for there to be less something in my life, I'm bombarded by nearly useless and certainly hopeless appendages that make it exceedingly difficult to just simply feel better. But I will. Because they're not worth it. I go through this little anger, narcissistic coil in my mind that says right here, "Fuck them because they're stupid."
And that's how I just feel about everything right now. STUPID SO MUCH STUPID
Nothing new.
So that irritates me. There's always something.
On the quest for there to be less something in my life, I'm bombarded by nearly useless and certainly hopeless appendages that make it exceedingly difficult to just simply feel better. But I will. Because they're not worth it. I go through this little anger, narcissistic coil in my mind that says right here, "Fuck them because they're stupid."
And that's how I just feel about everything right now. STUPID SO MUCH STUPID
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